"My ways are not your ways."
Today, I was reminded of a difficult experience I had before this beautiful revelation. A few months ago, I was very seriously ill. The doctors were running many tests and couldn’t seem to find out for several weeks what was wrong with me. Well, one night, I was horribly ill and lying on my bathroom floor. I had no strength to stand. I didn’t have my phone with me, and couldn’t even call out for my roommate. I was delirious with fever. As I lay there, I prayed and prayed for God to send someone to help me, to wake up my roommate, anything. But no one came. Eventually, He gave me the strength to stand and go back to either the bed or the couch (I can’t remember). In the following days as the fever progressed, and I still couldn’t eat anything, I prayed more. “Please send someone. Let someone know how sick I am. I can’t do this alone.” No one came.
At one point, though, the words came into my mind and heart, “I am here. You are not alone. Be still.” The miracles that I prayed for had not been granted, but I was given peace to know that He had me. I was in His hands. What else could I ask for? And in the following weeks, miracles did happen. My roommate was there a lot of the time. The doctors were able to find what was wrong with me and in time to prevent any further damage to my body.
So, what did I learn from all of this? So many things, but here are a few:
-God is in charge. He will not leave us, but will not always answer us in the ways we are seeking.
-He has a plan. Praying is intended to align our will with His and to entreat Him for the blessings He’s already waiting to grant us.
-In those times when I think I can’t take one more moment of suffering, He knows me better than I know myself, and I usually have some little reserve of strength left to get me through. I am stronger than I know, and when I’m not, He’s stronger than me.
-It’s important to continue to ask for help, both from the Lord and from others, even when I feel like I’ve asked once and that should be enough. There are more things to learn from humility than from stubbornness.
-Don’t be afraid to ask for miracles. They will happen. Sometimes in the ways we ask, and sometimes in other ways, but they do happen.
The Lord’s love is there. Constant, unchanging, and unconditional. We have only to reach out. Where have you seen the hand of God or His love in your life today?If you need a prompt to help you think of something, watch this video.